Sometimes you just feel like you are on top of the world, and that is definately me today. It was me yesterday too, but I feel even more that way right now.
Why do you ask? Because it's raining, because I am listening to Jack Johnson on this rainy day, because I'm almost to six and a half, and because I am proud of the human being that I am.
It's hard to do what you feel is right, people. Sometimes you burn bridges and sometimes you have to experience a level of ridicule for your decisions. But really, what does it matter in the end? What's right is right, and there is absolutely no alternative for the right thing these days. None. For any of you that actually read this (haha.... Oh Suzie-Q, my fabulous and solitary blog fan), know that there is never reason to give up your aspirations, goals, or even yourself for a temporary opportunity. Look to the long-term goal and stick to your guns!
Like I said before, I am not much of a scholar on anything really, but I do know that I'm right on this one. Do you realize how important you are as a member of this world? It's so easy to get caught up in the daily grind, and I for one find myself wondering how much my little self matters in the grand scheme of things. But let me tell you right now- you make a difference. Every day you make choices that affect someone else, whether or not you intend those choices to. So guess what that means? You have the choice whether to change the world, however smallish or incrimentally, for good or for ill every single day. Don't let a momentary setback change your ideals or your convictions. Don't sacrifice your personal integrity for a simple tradeoff with pride. It's really not worth it- I swear! In fact, it's empowering to know that you did exactly right the right thing at exactly the right time.
I mean that as literally as you can take it. Where does that sense of false security come from? Pride and selfishness come from the little ugly brother from the basement. He wants you to feel like your are powerless, like you are worthless, and like you should shy away from opportunities to stand for what you believe in. Don't listen to that crap.
Think about what you
feel. Stop thinking about what people think, because really, who cares what people think? Humanity as a race is absolutely ritarded: I mean, really, check out everything we do. We eat stuff that is completely bad for us, we do exciting things knowing that we could die in the process, we lie, we cheat, yada yada yada... What makes you think that there is one person on this planet that has to ability to make a perfect judgement when we voluntarily do things like that? Zip. Zero. Nada. But that's what your left shoulder keeps telling you, right? It's your left shoulder people- let's get real. How about talking about it with someone who actually knows what you are going through? Maybe you should turn to someone who cares about your well being. Hmmmm? Start making decisions based on what you know and what you feel and stop taking the advice of the immature idiot that decided to screw up before he even made it down here.
And I want to tell you all that standing up for yourself and for other people is what you are supposed to do. I'm not saying that everytime someone bashes you that you should junk punch them or take a hot knife to their heart, but I am saying that being bold and firm is the key to holding your ground when everything seems to be turning upside-down. Saying no is good sometimes. Saying yes is good sometimes. Find the balance. If you feel weird about your decision, don't simply excuse it as nerves. It could be something worth thinking about.
Love yourself OK? You're an amazing person, no matter how small your seem. You matter. Rinse and repeat :)
Love ya'll!
-Krissy
