Oh wow. What an amazing session. Elder Euchtdorf just totally made my day with his talk. Such an incredible blessing. Not only that, but just all the talks on trials have been so helpful.
Do you know what I've really been gaining from this conference? I've been learning to cope a little better; to endure. My gut still drops sometimes when I see things that remind me of happier times. I still tear up a little thinking about what my life would have been like and how sweet that time was and would have continued to be. But I can't get it back and that's that. Wishing that the knock will come on the door or the song will go off on the phone is simply a wish. But this is a trial- not a fairytale. It's meant to be hard. It's meant to hurt. But Jesus Christ is there for me. He understands those pains. He understands my sorrows. He's been holding me strong this whole time. What more can I ask for?
Optimism; what a word. That's a hard one to try and grasp when you are sitting at the bottom of a pit, right? It's hard to comprehend and accept that, indeed, there is a whole world of light above you; you simply don't have the perspective to see it yet. I'm inching my way up- I'm about halfway up. But there's still a long way to go, and until conference, I was starting to feel like it would be better to just stick at the bottom and camp out for the rest of my life. But I'm getting there- just gotta keep going :)
More to come! Can't wait for the next Session!!!!
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